I’m unsure of the metaphysics
Being published is only as good as the work you do. Lately, I’ve been suffering. Honestly, I’m the sort of spoiled soul that has to have ever hair in its right spot before I can spread my toes in the sand and be where I need to be. There are conflicts in my personal life which keep me from being as witted and creative as I would like to be. It’s funny, people tell me “If you’re so fucking miserable, why aren’t you at your best?” which is some terrible Hollywood bullshit that they may or may not have picked up from Little Miss Sunshine. I don’t doubt that there are folks who are inspired by being miserable, I can be one of them, but I feel that creativity is best spurred when there is a sense of accomplishment and progression. There’s no carrot on the stick as far as I’m concerned and I act accordingly. I’ve been pissing on the same brick wall for song long I’ve forgotten any other means.
I’ve picked up photography again. A few years ago I borrowed a Nikon D70s from the art department and shot with it for most of the semester. Great camera, took some good photos with it. Unfortunately, after giving it back I had no camera of my own to match it and no money to buy one. The Nikon effectively made me outgrow advanced point & shoots, rendering them to be too frustrating and cumbersome. I farted with my Sony DSC-H2 here and there but found that I would have to put more than twice the effort to get a rewarding shot, if you could call it rewarding to begin with. I was very surprised to wake up one morning and find that if you applied for Sony’s credit card you would effectively be able to purchase their A-200K DSLR for $217. A well reviewed entry-level DSLR for less than most middle of the road P&S’? Looks like I just went from “fuck my life” to “fuck my credit rating”.
The A-200k really ended up being a sweet deal, even if the kit lens is the sort of thing nightmares are made of. I’m not a big fan of taking 400 shots to get 5 decent photos, only because your lens really isn’t good for much else other than taking pictures of flowers and grandchildren. It’s completely different to be fighting your gear rather than finding a challenge with it. But for now, I’m dealing with it.
While the best “cheap” lenses tend to be more expensive than the offerings of Nikon or Canon, there is hardly a shortage of above average glass for a sweet price. Of course, I don’t exactly have a high earning job so even a $150 lens is a lot to think about.
Look at all dem words.
